“She remembered what it was like to have fun again.” ~Bella
Some of the most debilitating puzzle pieces that accompany an anxiety disorder are the fears toying away at the back of your mind and that almost everything feels like it has a heaviness attached to it.
I carry a lot of weight on my shoulders that rationally, I shouldn’t pay any mind to. But fear and worries are the irrational beasts I struggle with from time to time, and if you can relate, then you know what it’s like.
So like a lot of people, I chose a word to guide me through 2014 with companion words for each month. My word for March is: FUN. How does a serious girl start having fun? I looked to instagram for inspiration. My ultimate #1 inspiration is Deb Taylor, my sister here at She is Three. This woman lives her life with no inhibitions, incorporating color, play, and love into her days. She salutes the sun in the morning and toasts the evening with a glass of red.
Deb is just one example of many sources of inspiration I have found through instagram and pinterest. “She remembered what it was like to have fun again.”
YES. I only think of myself as serious because I’ve come to believe that story. I’ve repeated in my head hundreds of times. Let me step out of the box for a minute. Am I more than just serious? I have to be.
What do I like to do for fun that might actually lift my spirits and transport me into a better mood? The list is long.
I forgot how good it feels to laugh until I’m crouched over with tears in my eyes.
I forgot how much I love to dance.
I forgot that the colors I choose to wear can make or break my day, so it might be time to stop wearing so much black clothing.
To define myself with just one word is an injustice to all the facets of my personality. This month I’m remembering what it was like to feel carefree, rediscovering what was fun, and exploring new ways to get my giggle on.