She tiptoed thru the difficult days of her painful memories ~ Deb
Recently we attended the family gathering for Matt’s mother who passed last month.
The heartache of losing a loved one can be almost unbearable.
The emotions that collide with each other are so exhausting.
One moment you are laughing, sharing stories and memories of a beautiful life well lived.
The room is full of laughter and joy.
Suddenly the realness crashes in to the wee early morning hours of daylight with the knowledge that she is gone.
You can no longer pick up the phone for a random love bomb.
Your heart cracks wide open all over again.
Sad Sundays and mournful Mondays will become easier with time.
But in the meantime, other family matters require delicate footsteps.
I have conflict and concern. Some days are so difficult that I want to shout and stomp.
But I have come to learn that tip toeing and soft voices are far more loving and effective.
Life gets loud and mean sometimes.
It is up to us how we dance thru the painful noisy messes.